around here: week 18 2021

 {April 25th-May 1st}

{Jack pitching}

{Carly and Liesel :: by Carly Cunningham}

{Logan & Jack in Culinary at school}

Going... to the twins' baseball game and getting to see my sister, niece and nephew as well.  

Joining... my counselor via DoctoronDemand and feeling so grateful for her. (I can't remember if I have talked about it before, but DoctoronDemand works with my insurance, and I only end up paying $18.60 for each session with her. It's amazing, and we meet on the website -not in person- so I can meet with her wherever I am! Even on my phone!)

Attending... my first Parent/Teacher conference of the year with Logan & Jack's collective six (or is it seven?) teachers.  The twins go Mondays & Tuesdays this quarter in person, and the other three days they are still online. I wish they had been able to go back full time, but this is a step in the right direction.  (Wyatt started back full time last week, five days a week, and we are both thrilled about it. For him, it's best if I am just "mom" and not "mom" and "teacher".)

Watching... Wyatt's baseball game this week and cheering so hard for him. Carly has made friends with some of the kids who are also at baseball games during the week, and it makes me so happy to see her little social butterfly heart filled.

Reading... The Four Winds by Kristin Hannah which is about the dust bowl in Texas and the Great Depression. It has some parts that move really fast (like, that are underdeveloped) but I am invested in the characters, so we'll see how it goes. 

Sending... Carly over to my besties house for a few hours on Monday to play with Selah, who is the sweetest, most fun little mommy's helper. Carly adores her, and I adore having some time to myself (ha!) so it's win/win!

Loving... my book stacks all over the house.  I have so many books I want to read and that I'm looking forward to reading and planning on reading... they have kind of taken over the house.

Praying... so hard for Indy Llew, a little girl with cancer whose family I follow on Instagram.  @terahbelle 

Laughing... at Wyatt as he continues to blow my mind building things with Legos.  This week he made some English cars- I only know that the blue one is called a P-O-P 50, and he is so tickled with himself. I love his creativity. 

Feeling... so proud of Jack as he continues to improve his pitching.  He's so grown up on the mound, stopping to take a deep breath and bring his shoulders down before he throws. I could cry, I am so proud of how brave he is, and how he always keeps trying.

Playing... a new game called WaterSort Puzzle, and loving it. It's challenging, but at the same time mindless (how is that possible?) and I really enjoy it. 

Planting... all my dahlia tubers finally and feeling ridiculous. I am SO invested in how they grow and do this year.  Every day we are checking to see if they have popped through the dirt yet and I can't wait to harvest flowers from them throughout the summer.

Taking... Wyatt & Carly to the eye doctor this week to get their yearly exam and new glasses.  Carly chose purple frames, and she is delighted.  

Reading... old journals from junior high and laughing at myself.  (Well, and cringing. Hah!) I came across some old photos (including the one I posted here of me and a friend Nick) and they made me smile.  I really liked school and I had good friends. I was very lucky.
In some ways the journals were hard to read, though, as they were about when I was really involved at church, and it makes me sad how awful and sinful I thought I was. I was SUCH a good kid, a kind friend, and a loving daughter, but because of the messages I received from the church, I believed that I needed to continually be working on myself and improving.  Lots of good conversations with my younger self stemmed from reading those journals. 

Accepting... that our school days (Wednesday, Thursday & Friday) SUCK. None of us want to be doing this anymore, and we all just wish the twins had been able to go back full time.  I am tempted to start counting down, but the reality is, we have six weeks left.  Wahhhh!

Attempting... to go kayaking with Josh on Friday night for date night.  We loaded the kayaks, got the kids settled to watch a show together while we were gone, and then headed to the lake.  We got there and thought it looked a little choppy, but we decided to brave it anyway.  I hadn't even got past the boat launch when I had to turn around and tell Josh it was a no-go.  The waves were SO choppy, they were getting me wet, and if my kayak started to go to the side, I was afraid it would capsize. So we have yet to kayak this year. 

Grateful... that wearing my CPAP (a mask I wear hooked up to a machine that helps me breathe better at night) for sleep apnea is going well.  I don't know that I feel more rested yet, but the mask doesn't bother me or keep me awake, so that's good.  Hopefully in time, the good sleep will start to add up and I'll feel awesome. 

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