hope

So... Josh didn't get the job.
The one I talked about here.
The one we sort of put all our hopes & dreams into.
We found out yesterday morning. 

Surprisingly, we are doing okay with this letdown.

But I do wonder what it is that God has in store for us.

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I was watching an Oprah on Women, Food & God
(that inspiring book I read recently about weight & overeating)
and something Oprah said rang true for me.   
(I had to rewind & play this three times to really "get" it.)  

"When you surrender, and stop resisting and stop trying to change that which you cannot change, but be in the moment, be fully open to the blessings that you have already received and those that are yet to come to you, and stand in that space of gratitude and honor and claim that for yourself, and look at where you are and how far you've come and what you've gotten and what you've accomplished and who you are. When you can claim that and see that, the literal vibration of your life will change."

I think that if I can accept where we are, right now, in this moment, then big changes can come.  If I can accept that I may have to work in the fall- it would be hard, but I could do it- and accept that what I want to happen may not happen when I want it to, then God can do big things in our lives.

I have trusted Him completely thus far, and it's been an {amazing} road.  I met & fell in love with my soul mate; We both received Bachelor Degrees; I had a healthy twin pregnancy & birth; We have two beautiful sons;  and through it all He has taken care of all the details: finances, our health, insurance...  I just have to take a deep breath, mourn the loss of this opportunity and know that He will take care of it. Take care of us.

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"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead."  Philippians 3:13b