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| {Carly's first self portrait} |
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| {My guy & his dad} |
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| {Grandma Carol & Carly May} |
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| {He's always playing with her hair. Melts my heart.} |
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| {Uncle Samuel & his biggest fan} |
They did an easter egg hunt in the backyard, which Carly has replayed every single day since (hiding her own eggs and "finding" them again) which is adorable, and tiresome. Ha!
Baseballin'... four times this week. The twins had games Saturday, Monday & Wednesday and Wyatt had games Tuesday & Wednesday, so we all got in a lot of game watching, and Wednesday Josh and I had to "divide & conquer"- him taking the twins to their game (he's their coach) and me taking Wyatt and Carly to Wyatt's game.
Watching... Wyatt's sunflower plants grow. Last year he had one GIANT sunflower that we left all year (through the winter) and it seeded and started to grow baby sunflowers this spring. So now the garden patch is FULL of little green plants that started as sunflower seeds and are now sprouting up, with the poppped open sunflower shells still sitting atop the plants like little hats. So cute!
Rushing... to school early Tuesday morning when they called me because Logan had gone to the office complaining of an aura (the feeling he has preceding a seizure). I got there with Carly & Wyatt to check on him, and found that he had maybe already had a seizure (based on his description of symptoms). So we walked back to his classroom together and I took some notes from a fellow classmate who'd been sitting at the back table with him.
Sure enough, the way his friend described Logan during those few moments leads me to believe Logan did, indeed, have a breakthrough seizure. (After five months seizure free) He came home with me for the rest of the day so I could keep an eye on him, and I put a call in to his neurologist. She had warned us that with hormones and growing, we could see some breakthrough seizures because he was on the low end of the therapeutic dose.
She suggested we put him on 1,000mg of the Depakote at night and keep on 500mg in the morning. So that is what we are now doing and thus far, he hasn't had any more seizures. (fingers crossed)
Seeing... my counselor for the first time since mid-February. I had thought I had more scheduled at the time, but I didn't and by the time I got around to scheduling more, there weren't any openings until now. I did okay without the visits for a little while, but then it got hard not seeing him every couple weeks.
We talked this week about my inability to see my worth and how I am allowed to have needs. I think sometimes as a wife and mother, I believe I should be able to pour from an empty bucket. Turns out, I can't. Or at least not very well. I have also noticed that I'm really hard on myself. When I make a mistake, I say to myself in my mind (and sometimes even out loud) "Mom fail!" So my work this week is to let myself have needs, to allow myself to be human (no more labeling accidents as "mom fails") and to ask for help if and when I need it.
Forgetting... snacks for Wyatt's team on Wednesday, which was a huge test for me, as I had just recently seen my counselor and discussed my recent bout with perfectionism and how whenever I make a mistake I am super hard on myself. So I took a deep breath, apologized to the other moms and told them it had been a tough week, and accepted their kind words of understanding. They assured me a sugary, after game snack was NOT a big deal and that no one was upset.
Normally I would have beat myself up the entire way home, maybe even the whole week about it, but I was determined to accept their easy forgiveness and offer myself grace, so I quickly moved on, telling myself I am "human" and that means making errors. #onesmallstep
Facing... an aggressive dad at the park when our boys all got in a scuffle with each other, as ten and twelve year old boys are wont to do, and he came over looking for us. When Josh didn't discipline our boys passionately enough to his liking, he wanted to step in for him and things got tense, but Josh quietly stood his ground and the man eventually walked away. But the whole rest of the evening he kept posturing, trying to get between me and my kids, staring us down... it was incredibly uncomfortable. But in the end, it was a good lesson for my boys- to not fight with others at the playground; to run for help if others are fighting with you; and that as an adult, that father should have known better than trying to solve problems with yelling, swearing, and posturing.
Attending... a positive parent-teacher conference for Logan that made Josh and I so proud of him. He has done a complete turn around during this third quarter, getting his name on the Self Manager list; moving himself when his fellow students distract him; and improving all his grades. It was so great to watch him as his teacher listed off all the ways in which he has progressed. He was positively beaming.
Reading... Rising Strong, Miracle Creek & The Midwife of Hope River. I am so excited because The Midwife of Hope River is the first in a series of three, and I love it. I am listening to it, and it has me doing all.the.chores so I can listen a little more. ;)
Watching... Season Seven of Call The Midwife on Netflix. Gosh I love that show so much! (Thanks for telling me the new season was on, mom!)
Losing... my flipping mind with all the bottle flipping Wyatt does. Lord help me. The constant CLUNK CLUNK CLUNK is mind numbing. Ahhh!
Getting... a spacer put in for Logan & Jack at the orthodontist this week, and adjusting it nightly, to slowly spread out their upper jaw, spreading their teeth (and whole smile really) bit by bit. It has taken some getting used to in terms of talking and eating, but they have handled it really well. We also had to get Logan's wire replaced for the second and third time. The third time was because he lost a tooth that had a bracket on it, and that caused the wire to become loose & start poking him in the back of the mouth at bedtime. So Josh had to cut it out. Thank goodness the hygienists at the orthodontists office are so dang patient with him!
Loving... the drive to Josh's parents land. It's in the country and I always feel so relaxed on the drive out.
Inspired... by so many of the Instagram accounts I follow- Meredith Toering, Morgan Harper Nichols, Tiffany Gray, Laura Bentley, Laura Kelley, and Sherry Duerre.
Laughing... as Carly begged me to "go super fast like Blaze" on the way home from Grandma & Papa's land, and when I told her I couldn't, that if I did the police would get me she responded vehemently, "No they won't! You're a mom!"
Hah! I want to get that in writing!
Thankful... for friends who see me clearly, and love me dearly. I am so blessed by them. They buoy me up, assure me I am not alone in this crazy adventure we call "motherhood", and encourage me to carry on when life gets hard. Particularly my book club girls- meeting with them every month brings me such joy.
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