Driving... home in under six hours, which felt miraculous. Also, the drive felt super fast, which was unexpected. It's crazy how much less stressful driving long distances is without children. I realize as I write that it sounds really stupid (duh! Traveling without kids is easy!) but I haven't traveled without kids for a long time, and I forgot that it can kind of be enjoyable. Hah!
Getting... some great hugs when we arrived home Sunday. Carly especially was overjoyed to see us.
Prepping... for Monday and the week ahead by cleaning house and unpacking from our trip.
Dealing.... with unhappy children come Monday morning and enduring a never ending eye twitch as the week progressed. Really missing the beach...
Taking... Carly to her four year appointment and getting her vaccines (she was due for two) and then taking Logan to his neurologist appointment in Spokane on Tuesday. I was crazy-nervous to go to Spokane and meet with his neurologist because Spokane is where they are housing some of the people with Coronavirus (in an isolation unit) at the same hospital where he sees his specialist.
I was able to overcome my anxiety about it, though, knowing that the few cases present were in isolation and that we needed to meet with her to discuss his medication levels (we are going to lower them a little to bring them to a safer level) and they wouldn't have us come if it weren't safe.
On the drive home we stopped at Love's (a huge truck stop) for a potty break and Carly fell in love with a huge bubba (what my kids call stuffed animals) and I, being a pushover, bought it for her. ;) She was so brave for her shots, and was such a good girl during Logan's appointment, I couldn't say no. She named her "Kiki" and is in love.
Wanting... to just BE lately. So much so that on the drive home from Spokane, I didn't even listen to a story like I usually do. I just drove and thought and prayed, and enjoyed the peaceful feeling of Carly sleeping in the back seat.
Worrying... over many things and feeling that it's the whole "straw that broke the camel's back" situation. No one thing is HUGE and overwhelming, but all the things together feels like a LOT. I'm worrying about sleep, finances, the kids' anxiety, my own rising anxiety, some extended family situations I can't go into, Coronavirus, having no stockpile and how we are so woefully unprepared.
Stocking up... with Jack's help after school one evening. I feel so much better now that I know we have some food in our cupboards & pantry. It's not perfect, but it's something.
Letting... Wyatt attend a mid-week birthday party for a classmate at the bowling alley. He had SO much fun and even won a light up yo-yo and a real Lava Lamp! Josh used to have a Lava Lamp collection. They were his favorite.
Changing... days for Carly to go with Grandma from Thursday to Tuesday since she's heading out of town, and taking a much needed nap. I know that whenever my anxiety is rising, the best thing I can do for myself is sleep. That feels counterintuitive, as crossing things off my to-do list seems like it would be more anxiety-reducing, but years of experience have taught me that if I am well rested, I am better able to talk myself down, which is a huge part of keeping my panic at bay.
Reading... I am I am I am on audio, Miramar Bay for book club and starting Red, White & Royal Blue from Book of the Month. I am I am I am was a fun listen, and reminded me of all the ways our lives are miracles. I especially related to her miscarriages. Miramar Bay was a fine story, but the characters weren't super well developed and the story line didn't hold my interest. Just an "okay" story for me. I am only a few pages into Red, White & Royal Blue, so I will have to report back!
Attending... book club Tuesday night, which was lovely, as always. I adore those ladies so much. Unfortunately for me, the book was "meh"... but that's alright.
Washing... load after load of laundry, and thinking I'm going to join a few of my friends who have been keeping track of how many loads they do every month in April. I truly have no idea, I just know I always have some going and it.never.ends. I wonder if it's 40? 60?
Watching... Babies on Netflix and legit taking notes like the absolute nerd I am. So much fascinating research being done on hormones and breastmilk and bonding and brains... I think every parent should watch it!
Laughing... as Carly continually sings "Old Town Road" while mounting the couch, table or her siblings and pretending they're all horses. She's so hilarious.
Sending... the twins off to Vancouver to see my parents while Josh picks up his new car with his brother this weekend. The four of them took off Friday afternoon and I took Carly & Wyatt to Lego time at the library. They had a blast.
Making... homemade play dough on Saturday and hosting a sleepover in my bed (I actually ended up sleeping in Carly's bed #momlife) after movie night. The kids loved it. We rented two movies for the weekend since it was just the three of us. We watched Frozen II and Playing with Fire. The kids enjoyed both. I was also thrilled this weekend to find colored chalk for $1 at Dollar Tree for Carly's chalk board! So fun!
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