Showing posts with label asthma. Show all posts
Showing posts with label asthma. Show all posts

8.25.2020

Around Here: Week 33 2020

{August 9-15}



















Singing... with my dad  as he played his guitar their last morning here.  Carly got out the ukulele and even joined us.  She's so cute.
It was so nice to sing with my dad. 
It inspired me to want to try and learn how to play the guitar, so I am adding that to my list of things to try in 2020. My favorite song we sang was Leaving on a Jet Plane.

Calling... my friend Kori when I got an email that felt like an ultimatum from our school district. (#dramaticmuch ?) They gave us three options, which is great, but only five days to choose, after which the district will make the choice for you.
It just felt quick and quite heavy!
Talking to my girlfriend helped, though, and made me feel far less alone.  We are all truly in this together, even if we are making different choices.  We're just trying to do what's best for our families in some hard, hard situations, and none of it feels great. We are all longing for normal, and trying to make the best of what life has become.

Leaving... the kids with my parents while Josh and I attended his sister's birthday BBQ.  It was so nice to visit with his parents and siblings without any kids interrupting or causing mischief, and the kids had the best time, shopping for art supplies at JoAnn's (their first outing since last time we shopped with my mom when she was here in June) and swimming in the pool when they got back home.  Logan & Jack also helped make shrimp for dinner and mom said it was delicious!
While we were at the party I was able to seek advice from Josh's dad and sister, and basically they assured me that I knew the right answer for where the kids need to be when school starts. It was comforting.

Sending... Josh back to work after months at home.  He had to work Monday through Thursday this week, and it.was.brutal.
For me.
(hah! To be fair, it was probably brutal for him, too.)
Having all four kids on my own after nearly six months of constant co-parenting was T.O.U.G.H.  It makes me very (very) anxious for having them all home in the fall.

Deciding... & selecting the online option (making it official) that the kids will be doing distance learning for at least the first semester of the 2020-2021 school year.  Two of the boys were upset when I told them, wishing so much that life would just resume normalcy.  One cried and the other was angry.  The third had expected as much and was more resigned to being home for at least the first half of the year.
We chose that option because a) we feel it is the safest option with Wyatt and his asthma and Logan and his (sometimes fever induced) seizures and b) it will provide the most consistency with regards to creating a routine for all of us.
But it's really important to me that other moms know that just because I chose not to send my kids doesn't mean that I judge moms who are sending their kids. I truly believe that every family is doing what's right for them, and I hold no judgment.  Only love and solidarity, sisters. Love and solidarity.

Reading... Kelle Hampton's words on her Instagram about deciding to distance learn with her kids and feeling so much kinship with her:
"We’re keeping our kids home and following our district’s online school plan with my own creative supplementation. Because it’s what works for our family? God, no. I think we can throw that deciding factor out in 2020. None of this fits into the tidy box of “what works for our family.”
[But]...for now, we’re going to do what we do
...find beauty in the unexpected."

Worrying... so much over Wyatt's asthma when one night he started coughing and throat clearing for no apparent reason.  His peak flow dipped by about 25-50 points and he needed a nebulizer treatment.  I was so scared.  He hasn't been sick in ages (!) which is fantastic, but it also means I am out of practice, so I sort of forgot the protocol.  I had to pull it up from the depths of my memory- counting his breaths, taking his oxygen reading and giving him albuterol. 
Luckily that was all he needed and he hasn't had another problem since. Phew!  I sure wish I knew why random attacks like that happen.  They are exhausting and scary!!

Dreaming... that I had Coronavirus.  I know it's because of Wyatt's random coughing and asthma.  It was so scary, I was very grateful to wake up!

Crazy grateful... to Jack's art teacher who taught him all the skills he is using to keep from going nuts during quarantine currently.  He is painting, drawing and doing wood burning with the tool my mom bought him. 
I had been thinking of emailing his teacher when he happened to end up in line behind us at the McDonald's drive through one afternoon, so instead I bought his lunch. :)  Teachers just constantly make the world a better place and I love them.

Making... salads again for Josh for lunch at work and realizing how much I miss our routine and regular life.  I know the transition will be hard, but I am looking forward to settling back into it once the newness wears off.

Enjoying... the change of dynamic on Tuesday and Wednesday as Carol had Jack & Wyatt, and then Carly & Logan.  On Tuesday Carly & Logan swam and swam at home, and Logan was so sweet with Carly, it melted my heart.  Then on Wednesday, Ferris came over and he and Jack spent a ton of time in the pool while Wyatt had a playdate with Milo in Wenatchee. It's constantly crazy to me how adding or subtracting just one kid can change the way things go that day.

Driving... to Quincy early Wednesday morning to do a cousin switch with my sister (as mentioned above) and listening to an audiobook on the way while downing a huge mug of coffee. A long drive and a good audiobook may just be one of my favorite things.

Taking... Grady to the vet at the last minute when he was feeling down on Thursday.  He seemed to have a fever and was lethargic, plus he wouldn't let me pet him by his shoulder blades.
I was SO glad I took him in. It turns out he had a skin infection and a high fever.  The vet gave him pain meds as well as antibiotics (and a reverse mohawk so she could really see his skin on his back- haha- poor pup!) and within two days he was visibly feeling better. Hallelujah!!

Reading... The Pull of the Stars, and The Girls of 17 Swann Street on audio (HIGHLY recommend both!); and Evvie Drake Starts Over and The Two Lives of Lydia Bird.  I finished Evvie Drake in like three days- so good!, and am still working through The Two Lives, but am liking it.

Still Watching... Grey's Anatomy.  I am only on Season Six, but oh how I love it. I can't believe I never watched it before now!

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5.01.2020

around here: week 16 2020
































Celebrating... Easter in the most low key way ever.  Yoga pants and one pound bunnies for the win, plus a "pennies & marshmallows" in the eggs Easter egg hunt for Carly.

Panicking... when Wyatt had a rash on his cheeks and his asthma acted up that same evening.  Josh had been to the grocery store that same day and I knew it was unlikely Wyatt had Coronavirus, but my anxiety was quite convincing.  Thankfully my sister was available to text and remind me to do the next right thing.  She had me give him Benadryl for his rash; check his asthma notebook for the steps to take in regards to his breathing; and promised me that it would all be okay, and that most likely he was suffering fifths disease, which was confirmed later in the week when the rash spread from his face to his torso, and kept coming and going. 
That night Josh said he would stay up with Wyatt on the couch so I could sleep seeing as my anxiety was already pretty bad.  So I went to bed, Wyatt did a nebulizer treatment with Josh and all was well.

Laughing... at Carly's epic morning hair.

Reading... It's Not Supposed To Be This Way and Sweep.  Sweep is a YA that's super sweet & compulsively readable.  I got through it super quick.  It was this month's book club pick.  It's Not Supposed To Be This Way was another good read, but more of a slow digestion, underlining on each page, and the perfect quarantine time read.  I enjoyed it. 

Crying... when we saw Josh's mom Carol this week and later that night it hit me how hard it had been to practice social distancing with her and not let her hug the kids or hug her myself!  It's such a strange, confusing time, made worse by kids who don't necessarily understand why we're doing what we're doing. "But I'm not sick anymore," Carly keeps saying because she had a cold at the beginning of quarantine, but not is 100% healthy.

Filling... our time with homeschooling, playing Lego, chalking the sidewalks outside, taking baths with fun shaving cream (thanks, Easter bunny!), eating Cheetoh's, spending afternoons in the yard together, playing with Grady, enjoying the sunshine, doing Roblox with cousins, and driving the RC Car that Josh got down from his closet for the boys to share.  They are enthralled!

Smiling... at the tiny vase I keep in the windowsill above the sink that Carly fills daily with flowers, mostly dandelion "wishies", and feeling so blessed by her.

Grooving... in our daily routine and feeling like it's all going really well & starting to almost feel normal.  Jack had a Zoom meeting with one of his classes and it put the biggest smile on his face.  My book club also decided to meet twice this month via Zoom meeting so we could feel more connected.  I am so grateful for those girls and so glad we're able to stay in contact that way.

Wearing... both my rings (my wedding ring and the anniversary ring Josh bought me for our 8th wedding anniversary) everyday since our 20th {dating} anniversary that was on April 11th.  Wearing them both reminds me that we have been through hard times together before and come out on the other side.  So I know we will get through this together as well.

Enjoying... bedtime with Carly lately.  I just love reading to her, and laying with her, and snuggling her, and how even though it's April, she chooses a Christmas song for her lullaby.  I really wish I could just freeze time. 
I am also cherishing the time I'm spending tucking the boys in after I get Carly down.  They want to talk, a lot about Coronavirus, but also about things we're reading in history, stuff they're thinking, and what they enjoyed doing that day.

That said... I am also dealing with some BIG emotions from all the kids at random times.  Carly woke up the other night, SOBBING hysterically.  I never did get out of her what was the matter. I just held her close, rocking and drying her tears, until she fell back asleep.  It was heartbreaking.  For the boys their sadness about the lockdown tends to manifest as anger, specifically anger targeted at their brothers.  It makes for some long days.

Watching... Jumanji: Welcome To The Jungle and having pizza for movie night with the kids.  I liked the second (newer) Jumanji, but the first (newer) Jumanji is my favorite. It is hilarious, and the kids love it, too. 

Witnessing... Carly's pure joy when she drew her first heart, almost by accident, during school time the other day.  She was so proud of herself.  I love how independent she wants to be and how much she wants to be just like me. 
She also helped me cut apples for apple cake (the kids get apples almost daily with their school lunches and we had apples up to our eyeballs!) and helped me make the frosting, too.  She loves to have "mommy day" with me when Josh takes the boys out to the land to ride their four wheelers.  We paint our nails and whatever I'm doing, she gets to be my helper.
She really is all my dreams come true.


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