With my illness has come a severe case of homesickness.
I have called my mom everyday, and texted multiple times with both my sister and Josh's sister.
I also texted other friends, asking for prayers & strength.
The overwhelming consensus is that I am loved & my loved ones believe I can do hard things.
Everyone is praying, and I am so grateful.
The people around me here have been amazing, too. Konnie watched the boys so I could go to the clinic; Nick drove me to and from the clinic; Peter gave me applesauce, and Krista gave me Gatorade and a Dasani flavored juice pack.
With my homesickness and my actual illness, I have also been suffering the worst anxiety of my life. I spent all of Sunday night (at 3am) in tears on the couch, googling medical terms, and sobbing hysterically. I am lucky in that my mom suffers also, and has been able to talk me down every time I call her. I am so thankful for her. I am so thankful that she gets me.
Being so scared is the worst feeling. Feeling out of control isn't much better. Finally today I took an anti-anxiety pill and saw my symptoms start to subside. I hope this is a sign that I'm getting better.
Thank you for your thoughts & prayers everyone.
Thank you so much.
"One person caring about another represents life's greatest value."