With my illness has come a severe case of homesickness.
I have called my mom everyday, and texted multiple times with both my sister and Josh's sister.  
I also texted other friends, asking for prayers & strength.

The overwhelming consensus is that I am loved & my loved ones believe I can do hard things.
Everyone is praying, and I am so grateful.

The people around me here have been amazing, too.  Konnie watched the boys so I could go to the clinic; Nick drove me to and from the clinic; Peter gave me applesauce, and Krista gave me Gatorade and a Dasani flavored juice pack.

With my homesickness and my actual illness, I have also been suffering the worst anxiety of my life.  I spent all of Sunday night (at 3am) in tears on the couch, googling medical terms, and sobbing hysterically.  I am lucky in that my mom suffers also, and has been able to talk me down every time I call her.  I am so thankful for her. I am so thankful that she gets me.

Being so scared is the worst feeling.  Feeling out of control isn't much better.  Finally today I took an anti-anxiety pill and saw my symptoms start to subside.  I hope this is a sign that I'm getting better. 

 Thank you for your thoughts & prayers everyone.  
Thank you so much.

"One person caring about another represents life's greatest value."
-Jim Rohn


Tabitha Studer said...

hang in there, Shelly! Sending love and peace to you from PA!!

Emily said...

Read a quote on a different blog and thought I would share. "Let everything happen to you. Beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final." Rainer Maria Rilke