{A walk with my sister & boys this summer} |
So I've gained some weight since my bout of anxiety & depression last fall & winter. About 20-30 pounds, depending on the day and which scale I step onto. (The one downstairs is far kinder.) And as much as I hate it, I am feeling so much better anxiety-wise, that it's worth it. After months of not having any appetite, craving something feels like a luxury. And my sweet husband? He doesn't see it. Neither do my kids.
I am currently trying to extend myself grace like I do my girlfriends, loving my body for its ability to produce and care for my children. And my husband. And my house. Not judging it based on its shape, but rather its functionality.
It's not easy, but I'm working on it.
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I love you! xxoxo - anytime I'm feeling less than great about my own body, I think of my daughters instead. and since you don't have any, you can borrow my Gemmi in spirit :) in case you need inspiration: http://studerteam.blogspot.com/2013/06/an-open-letter-to-my-daughter-about-her.html
I was complaining to my 16 year old about my extra 25 lbs that I've gained over the last five or so years (yes I know I'm not supposed to do that I was having a weak moment) and she told me, "Mom, you still look the same to me and it doesn't matter." I thought about that and how I feel the same way toward my mom and grandmas. It doesn't matter what their weight has been over the years they are important to me just as they are.
I've been stressing about the 20 pounds I've put on over the past year and a half. This is a good reminder to keep it all in perspective.
I think you look great! I am a reader in NY and I always think how happy and glowy you look in your photos - you radiate a positive energy and I honestly think you look beautiful!!
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