3.05.2015

Waiting...


Lately, the waiting...  It's killing me. Do you feel like you go through periods of time that are for a specific purpose.  Where the same theme keeps popping up, over and over again?  For me, right now, I'm in a period of waiting.  Waiting to see what the future holds for our family (more babies? no more babies?)... Waiting to see how my grandpa is (--luckily I finally got word that all is well and he is home! praise the lord!)... Waiting for Josh to get home from work in the evenings... Waiting for math to "click" with the boys... Waiting for afternoon quiet time and a break... Waiting for time to slow down... Waiting for more hours in the day to appear so I can get more done around here...

And more specifically, I've been waiting for THINGS.  Three weeks ago I was blow drying my hair after a workout and a shower, and I used the "cool" button (the cute blue one with the snowflake on it? You know?) and the whole thing shook, kind of sparked, and turned bright orange inside.  Pretty much scared the bejeezus out of me, and I immediately unplugged it and set it on the counter to cool down before telling Josh it needed to be taken to the dump.

Now I don't know for sure that it would have caught my hair/face/body on fire the next time I used it, but I felt fairly certain that it would, so we threw it out. I had had that blowdryer since before I had the twins, so it was nearing a decade old.  As soon as I got downstairs I jumped online and ordered  a replacement from Amazon.  It said it would be here in two days.  I knew that was a lie, considering where I lived, but I thought it'd take a week at most. 

Fast forward 21 days of surviving in ALASKA with cold, wet hair every morning, and I finally got my blowdryer yesterday!  This morning was like when you get home from camping and get to take a "real" shower, only better, because my hair is not a) in a messy bun and b) bringing my core temperature down.  

In addition to waiting for that blowdryer, I am waiting for:  the co op to have eggs, coffee creamer and tomatoes; date night tomorrow (We've missed date night for two weeks because the school has been hosting basketball, and bonus, Josh bought the new Hunger Games for us to watch!); Saturday Social for the boys to run crazy (we also missed that for two weeks because of basketball games); and for me to finally feel caught up.  

You guys, how do you do what you do? Yes, you. How do you manage to get done all the things you get done in a day living where you live, doing what you do? I am home (literally in.my.house) every single day, barring a few hours on Saturday, and still the laundry piles up, there's toothpaste all over the sinks, and things on the to-do list that taunt me as I re-write them every week, having never crossed them off the week before.  I can't imagine how you do it with jobs (did I really used to have one of those? How in the world did I swing it?!?) and after school activities, social engagements, and traffic and shopping and all the demands that are LIVING.  Here I am, tucked away in my quiet corner of the world (granted, with three very loud, rambunctious little boys...) but still, here where things move slowly and the demands on my time aside from family are few, and I often feel I am drowning in all the work.  I end each day wishing I had read more, laughed more, done more.

I am hopeful that the arrival of my blowdryer (betcha didn't know a blowdryer could signal a change from the heavens?) is a sign that my times of waiting are coming to an end.  My hope is that tomorrow Josh will come home from the co op with eggs, creamer and tomatoes (and maybe even lettuce! But let's not go too crazy!), that my weekend won't sneak away from me while I'm not looking, and that I will finally get some of those to-do's crossed off that evil list.  I hope my grandpa keeps doing awesome (seriously, I love that guy and am so grateful he's well!) and I hope that as I prioritize and reorganize what my days look like, I will go to bed feeling more content and less demanding.

In the meantime, I know God is just growing my patience. 


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10 comments:

Marilynn Raatz said...

Love this post Shelly. It's hard with a family to get caught up. Forget about staying caught up. It is a balance and I think you're doing great!

Ashley B said...

Oh man, I so relate. What is it about February? I finally feel like I'm getting out of the funk and that constant feeling of being behind. Baby steps.

Maybe my new motto will help you too: "Some beats none." Hard for a perfectionist like me to accept, but I'm trying. :)

Hannah Jean said...

Love this post! I've been playing the waiting game lately too. It seems like to combat the "waiting" I have taken on more projects than I can actually accomplish...then it becomes hard to catch up. Haha. It's a crazy cycle.

Holly Parlier said...

I never have everything done either! I clean the major living areas nightly and the whole house weekly, but I am virtually always behind on laundry. The clean clothes pile up in the laundry room and I put them away oh once a week or so. Its pretty bad when your two year old knows to go downstairs to the basement to find clean socks. :)

Amos said...

Shelly, YOU ARE NOT ALONE GIRL! I feel like I am always behind. Some days I get a great spark in me and I get a lot accomplished but those days are few and far between. Your kiddos are young and you have a lot on your plate. Don't get discouraged because you are an inspiration to many (Me included) and are doing a wonderful job & You are rocking this Mama title!

Petersons said...

How awful to go without a hair dryer! I hate having wet hair for long periods of time unless I'm somewhere hot.
My kids are all in school now but I remember stressing out about trying to stay caught up and I wished I would've relaxed and calmed down a little more and enjoyed them a little more when they were tiny. I do enjoy having teenagers though - they are lots of fun!

Kimberly F said...

21 days without a blow dryer? EEK! I would have gone crazy! Or worn a hat every day! :) It is soooo hard to get things done with the kids around. What should take me 1 hour to do takes 3 when I am chasing and waiting on 2 little boys! My weekends are so stressful, I don't know how you stay at home moms do it every day!!!

Courtney Romine said...

I hear ya! I am absolutely never caught up - and this past week I put off all housework just about every night due to the ballgames here. Auuugghhh! Laundry and dishes ALL DAY today!!!!

Bad Rebecca said...

Thank you for keeping it real! I'm a SAHM (except I work part-time from home, writing and editing Language Arts curriculum) and I never have enough time OR energy. We always have a sink full of dishes, a floor full of toys, and a gigantic pile of clean laundry on our couch! When my oldest started preschool last year (she goes three mornings a week), I finally felt like I had time to get housekeeping done, but now that I have a baby, too, it is once again impossible. Every single day I wish I didn't live across the country from my mother, as I'm sure you do, too!!!

Annery said...

Oh the waiting! So so hard. Glad you got your hairdryer :)