Around Here: Week 43 2024

 {October 20-26th}

Attending... Romy's birthday in Wenatchee at our favorite pottery spot. It was the sweetest birthday party.  Carly made a witch-hat tray for Halloween decorations and I painted some tiny pumpkins. I can't wait to get them back! After the party, we went to my mom's house for food and cupcakes, and Carly got to meet my mom's new kitten, a little siamese girl named Indigo. She's the absolute sweetest and Carly is in love. I was glad Carly had a good time, but I was not feeling like myself and we left pretty early. 

Unfortunately... Logan's car broke down and Josh has been battling to get it running again. So on my way home from Wenatchee I stopped to get a part in Quincy for the CR-V. Fingers crossed it's what we need.

Loving... the adorable (and thoughtful) Boo Box that Jack made for Cadence.  He even used my HP Sprocket printer to print some pics of the two of them and framed them. Also this week he changed a flat tire for Cadence when they were all out to lunch and it went flat. I'm so proud of him and Logan (who was also there) that they knew what to do!

Proud... of Jack for taking himself to his therapy appointment this week. He's doing so much better and we're all so relieved. 

Subbing... in kindergarten in my favorite class (the one I did my student teaching in last year) and it was so fun. I just love her classroom, how she runs and this years' kids, too. 

Attending... Cadence's choir concert with Jack and her parents which was like a way-back playback from my own high school career. Hearing so much beautiful music and acapella singing was like balm for my weary soul. 

Walking... for a little bit everyday for my mental health. I hate it. I do it kicking and screaming, but I never regret it once I'm going. 

Working... on multiplication with Carly before and after school.  Most mornings we do it while we wait in the parent pick-up line to drop her off.  But sometimes we do it on the couch at home after school. She's doing so well! I'm so proud of her!

Feeling... a kind of tired that reaches down to my bones.  But trying to smile nonetheless. 

Spending... some one on one time at home with Josh Friday after all the kids went to school.  He teaches in a different school district and he had no school, but our kids did have school, so we pretended we were on a getaway (which we so desperately need) and laid in bed watching a movie, just like we would if we were at a hotel.  Then Josh got us lunch at Subway and it was honestly just so nice to just spend time together, the two of us, talking with no interruptions... sigh. It didn't solve all our current life problems, but it was sure lovely. 

Cherishing... Carly as she found the rake and raked up a pile of leaves in the front yard for her doll to jump in. She is just so precious, and her joy for life is my daily sunshine.  I know she won't be doing this (raking up piles of leaves for her dolls) forever, so I plan to enjoy every moment while she still is. 

Visiting... Josh's sister and brother camping on Saturday.  I had a hard time even getting out of bed, I was just so tired and overwhelmed.  Josh helped me break it into small steps and we managed to get Carly ready and out to Grandma's.  The twins were in Wenatchee visiting cousins and Wyatt stayed home to attend the neighbor's Halloween party.  The place they were camping was beautiful and we saw so many deer (including a mama with twin fawns) and the landscape all around was gorgeous.  Samuel & Makayla cooked us dinner which was delicious and we had some deep talks and some great laughs. All in all it was just what we both needed. 
When I told Josh I was having a hard time getting in the shower lately that morning, and that I hadn't really read a book in about a month, he said he wants me to call my PCP on Monday and see if I can get an appointment to talk about depression and maybe increasing my meds. I'm just not myself.  I feel like crying just about 100% of the time, and I am bone tired, no matter how much sleep I get. Plus I am not enjoying things that normally bring me joy. So next week I will be doing just that. 

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My girl @cjanekendrick hit me in the chest with this pic

TLDR: if you're not in the arena, STFU

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Flashback pics:

evidence that time is a thief

Jack & Logan, age 6

Wyatt & Mommy

My sister & me

Carly May, 2 years