A Letter To My Baby

Dear #4...

Sweet, sweet baby.  You are a much wanted, much loved addition to our family, and we are all excited for your arrival.  Your brothers don’t know yet that you are coming, but the twins have both requested a baby, Logan even wants two!  Wyatt says we can’t have a baby cause there’s not a place for you, but once we told him we could put you in the crib, he thought that would work.  He’s so funny!

I am excited to have a baby while I have big boys who can help and enjoy your babyness with me. I am excited to have a baby to focus on and give love to while your daddy works hard for our family like he does. I am excited to feel you move inside me, to kiss your forehead as you lay on my chest, and to nurse you like I did Wyatt, until you are a sleepy lump in my arms. There is so much to anticipate and look forward to with a new baby on the way.

I can’t believe I am already 10 weeks along.  I am a quarter of the way there. In May I will have another little baby.  Four children.  All I ever wanted in my life was to marry my own Prince Charming and be a mommy.  The fact that all my kids are so amazing makes the whole mommy part better than I ever imagined.  Those three brothers you have, and you (!) are the biggest blessings of my life.  I thank God everyday for the blessing of being your mommy.

This has been my healthiest pregnancy. I am exercising and not drinking any caffeine (except today—your brothers were sick in the night).  I haven’t missed a prenatal vitamin in months, and I am drinking tons of water. I have a very low stress level, as I am very much enjoying homeschooling your brothers and being a stay at home mommy. It’s what I always dreamed of.

I love that the hard work I put in when Logan & Jack were babies is continuing to pay off in that I have never had to leave Wyatt to go to work, and I will never have to leave you.  Being a stay-at-home mom is challenging, don’t get me wrong, and there are days that are beyond challenging, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world.  What I am doing at home with you is the most rewarding work with the biggest pay off.  I wouldn’t change a thing.

Little one, you are growing inside me. One inch right now, and am so excited that my body can grow you. So keep growing, okay? Stay healthy, and come see me in May.  You have three brothers and one amazing daddy who all want to see you.

I love you.

Love, your mommy

{written October 27, 2014}


Cheese Lady said...

prayers are with you and your family, so sad for this loss for you.((HUGS))

Rox said...

I'm just seeing this for the first time. No words. :( Love you.