Shocked... to find out that Josh has shingles and Bell's Palsy. It started with some pain in his scalp during a haircut, then a bit of inner ear pain. Then last Thursday he woke up and the right side of his tongue was numb and couldn't taste food. Then Saturday morning he woke up in Vancouver (where he had traveled to help his brother, who is moving to our town) and the entire right side of his face was drooping. I encouraged him to call the advice nurse and she said he needed to get into the ER. In the ER they put all his symptoms together and figured out that he had shingles (the scalp & ear pain) that lead to Bell's Palsy (the tongue numbness & face drooping). Basically the entire right side of his face is paralyzed.
Since then, his eye is now unable to close and he has to put eyedrops in constantly to keep it lubricated. We also have to tape it shut at night so it doesn't dry out.
He's in a ton of pain from the shingles, and the Bell's Palsy is insanely annoying. He can't taste his food or blink his eyes or smile normally, and the doctor told him it would be at least three weeks (on the short end) but could take up to six months to completely heal. Luckily the shingles should heal in about two weeks.
In any event, it's going to be a long road, and my heart just hurts for him.
Coping... with this news by crying hysterically in the shower; going on long walks; talking to friends; eating too much candy; drinking soda (which I haven't had in months); eating comfort food; buying books at Goodwill (my favorite splurge); binging on bad TV at naptime and checking things off my to do list.
Happy... that Josh's brother Samuel moved here permanently. My kids adore their Uncle Samuel and Josh has been happy having him around as well.
Hanging... with my girl Shana and feeling so grateful for her friendship.
Getting... flowers from our neighbor Barb. They have brightened my bedroom all week.
Enjoying... muffins from my friend Megan. Carly is also enjoying them. And by enjoying, I mean telling me, "I have my own mom. I don't want to share yours." Hah!
Encouraging... a friend (and myself) to find 3 blessings per day to slowly find joy again. Sometimes (often times) life is hard. So hard. And just remembering each night as you fall asleep, three little things that made you smile or feel grateful can shift your focus from all that is wrong to all that has gone right.
- Stacks of books
- Sister laughs
- Spontaneous hugs
Walking... to school each day, and enjoying it so much. The fall weather is simply gorgeous, and I love being out in it.
Going... to the doctor for my recent hair loss. About two weeks ago, I started noticing I was losing more hair than normal. It sort of came on my radar. Then this week I really noticed I was losing a LOT of hair. So much that I would venture to say I've lost more than half of my hair since the beginning of September. It's so upsetting.
I got myself an appointment earlier this week, assuming it was a delayed side effect from one of my medications (I take Topomax for migraines and Prozac for anxiety), but he said that it's not from either of those (which I've been taking since January & April). He believes my hair loss is from chronic emotional stress, likely from the super stressful spring we had, when Logan was having an increase in seizures and Wyatt was sick back to back to back.
Not reading... enough this week.
Spending... too much time on social media. Blah. (Accepting tips & tricks for how to spend less time online. However, I'll be honest- I'm not willing to give it up entirely! #addicted)
Meditating... everyday this week, which is a step in the right direction for my brain, but hopefully next week I can add more reading and less scrolling to my meditating. I use the Calm app, and I can't say enough good things about it.
Sleeping... through the night twice this week, and feeling amazing on those days. I seriously love when I wake up and it's 4 or 5am and I'm like, "What?!? I slept all night?!?" It's the BEST!
Loving... the new couch Josh surprised me with. It's a beautiful sectional from Costco and fits our whole family, and with room to spare. The kids have all thanked Josh profusely for it, it's so cute! The cats are big fans (obviously!) and it even makes me kind of excited for winter time and snuggling up for movie night with the fam.
Celebrating... Logan going two weeks seizure-free on his new meds. We switched him after his last appointment from Lamictal to Tegretol (Carbamazepine). He takes 200mg 2x a day. So far, it seems to be working wonders. I am ridiculously grateful and hopeful that it continues to work for him.
Taking... Wyatt to the doctor this morning when he woke up and blew a 225 after blowing 300's all week. He became sick practically overnight. What is just a runny nose, no big deal, for everyone else, settles into Wyatt's lungs and causes him severe distress, requiring an extended round of steroids, in addition to a week's worth of albuterol and budesonide treatments in his nebulizer. It makes me grateful I enjoyed the break that the summer offered from his Reactive Airway Disease and asthma, and also grateful for all the steps we took to prepare for illness this fall (preventive inhalers, buying a new nebulizer, refilling prescriptions, and getting a new kind of nebulizer breathing apparatus called the Pari).
I am hopeful that with all these steps in place, and the fact that we got him on steroids so quickly this time, he will recover fast and be back to his regular, healthy self ASAP.